The Yours Truly Podcast

EVENT INFORMATION: Breakwater Festival Culemborg, The Netherlands: November 7-9 2025Crowdfunding/Pre-sale ticket link: https://igg.me/at/BackingBreakwaterBreakwater Email: contact.breakwater@gmail.comBreakwater Discord: https://discord.gg/8DQr77MR33Cassidy VanderKamp returns to Yours Truly to preview the 4th Breakwater Festival (Nov 7-9 | Kattenburg, NL)—the estuary-style gathering born in Paul VanderKlay’s “This Little Corner.”Why it matters: Cassidy calls the original online estuary meet-ups “life-changing” and now hopes to “grow at the speed of relationships,” scaling conversations from Discord to embodied community. We unpack:• How Breakwater flips internet culture into flesh-and-blood hospitality• The new “naturally grungy” factory venue & speaker lineup (Joseph Foley, Nathan Jacobs, Jelle Houtman)• Crowdfunding model (tickets at cost, extras like a speaker-dinner & retreat housing)• Lessons from estuary hubs in NL, Germany & the UK—and why sustainability still matters• Moving from deconstruction to deeper faith, and why neutral “meaning spaces” help seekers reconnect to church lifeChapters00:00 Intro & Cassidy’s estuary origin story05:40 “Life-changing” online Randos08:10 Growing at the speed of relationships17:30 Truth-seeking vs. “capital-T truth” showdowns24:30 What Europe’s estuary leaders need next36:00 Why Breakwater 2025 picked a ‘naturally grungy’ venue44:15 Speaker roster & cross-pollination theme50:00 Crowdfunding perks & how to attend56:30 Closing encouragement & contact info(adjust once the final edit is locked)Mentioned: Paul VanderKlay, John van Donk, Taylor Swift, Jordan Peterson, Joseph Foley, Nathan Jacobs, Jelle Houtman, Christopher Hitchens.👥 Support & Connect• Become a channel member: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU5SNBfTo4umhjYz6M0Jsmg/join • Substack: https://substack.com/@christianbaxteryt?utm_source=user-menu• Twitter/X: https://x.com/chrbaxter_yt

Episode 122 — “Stay Baptist, My Friends” w/ Bob the Baptist ( @BraveNewTube  ) Confessional Baptist YouTuber Bob the Baptist drops into the Yours Truly studio to talk metamodern faith, meme-powered theology, and the restless search for identity after Big Eva. We trace his journey from cult-adjacent youth ministry to a second-London-Confession revival, riff on Redeemed Zoomer’s “Silicon-Valley energy,” and wonder what comes after the church-growth machine.

Grey Hamilton—college tennis coach, husband, father, and rando from This Little Corner—joins me to share the long, winding story of how he moved from divorced-family disillusionment and elite achievement into Christian discipleship, awakening through Jordan Peterson and the TLC community.Raised without deep roots in church, Grey pursued excellence in tennis from childhood, eventually playing Division I at Ole Miss and entering the professional circuit. But his journey is far more than a sports story—it’s one of father wounds, cultural dislocation, relational idols, psychedelic descent, and personal resurrection.We walk through: • Grey’s early family fractures and his mom’s post-hippie secular progressivism • His friendship with a steadfast Christian teammate • A college romance with a rooted Southern Christian family • The Peterson pipeline and awakening through “12 Rules for Life” • His mushroom trip and the experience of unmoored identity and divine reorientation • His struggle to integrate faith with vocation • And the present tension: discerning where and how to plant roots for his family after losing his job at BaylorWe end with a deep dialogue about generational presence, community, sacred memory, and the weight of choosing place over platform in an era where meaning has been traded for mobility.🕰️ Timestamps00:00 Intro – Grey Hamilton, rando from TLC02:30 Growing up in Pinehurst, NC – sports, divorce, and secular drift14:00 Tennis becomes life – success, loneliness, and escapism26:15 College & culture shock – from Columbia to Ole Miss36:20 Meeting Rob – a real Christian friend amid a team of atheists44:10 Awakening begins – Peterson, humility, and curiosity51:00 Dating Savannah – gospel witness through family and relationship58:00 Losing idols – breakup, injury, and collapse1:07:15 The mushroom trip – seeing beyond attachment and self1:17:30 From secular NPC to sacramental seeker1:25:00 What Paul VanderKlay, Peugeot, and TLC unlocked1:33:00 Working at Baylor – the promise and the disillusionment1:42:15 Job loss and the wilderness – how to discern what’s next1:51:30 Should we stay or go? Generational trauma, place, and permanence2:01:00 What makes a good life? Local roots and eternal vision⸻🎙️ Guests Mentioned / Referenced • Paul VanderKlay • Jordan Peterson • Jonathan Pageau • John Vervaeke • Rob Henderson • Kale Zelden • Dallas Willard • CS Lewis • John Mark Comer • Ian McGilchrist • Jordan Hall • Ross Bird • Ryan Peterson (Grey’s old coach)⸻📌 Stay Connected🔔 Subscribe: @christianbaxter_yt💬 Join the conversation in the comments💒 Support rooted ministry & digital witness: Join as a Channel Member: Join this channelhttps://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU5SNBfTo4umhjYz6M0Jsmg/join🐦 Twitter: https://x.com/chrbaxter_yt?s=21📖 Substack: https://substack.com/@christianbaxteryt?r=433pnb&utm_medium=ios&utm_source=profile

In this episode of Yours Truly, I sit down with Nick—better known as Free Rilian—for a longform conversation about growing up in small-town Illinois, navigating revival culture, and trying to find God in the middle of depression, disappointment, and spiritual confusion.Nick shares his deeply personal story—from early days in a charismatic church and the soul-numbing pressures of purity culture, to chasing identity through performance, ministry, and eventually the promise of healing at Bethl’s School of Supernatural Ministry. Along the way, we talk about Jordan Peterson, fatherhood, the haunting beauty of old family land, and the surprising grace of Anglican liturgy.This isn’t a hot take. It’s a testimony. Honest, funny, raw, and full of the ache for something real.Timestamps:00:00 – Intro & Who is Free Rilian?03:20 – Growing up in revival-town Illinois06:45 – Pentecostal roots, prophetic women, and family salvation stories13:50 – The quiet wound of an absent father in church19:00 – Porn, shame, and the moralistic trap29:00 – “What if she breaks up with me?” – High school heartbreak and the descent34:00 – “God, I want to do this your way” – prayer and a slow climb back36:00 – Worship as David’s harp in the dark40:00 – Years at Bethl: chasing healing in the charismatic machine48:00 – Discovering Peterson, truth-telling, and deconstruction54:00 – Making the leap in a St. Louis restaurant58:00 – Working as a janitor, listening to every Peterson lecture1:03:00 – Sacraments, symbols, and the real presence of God1:08:00 – Why Nick became Anglican1:14:00 – Apostles Creed & Chill1:18:00 – Local life, home, family, and the death of small towns1:27:00 – On Midwest estuary and the TLC subculture1:32:00 – Holding onto land, family legacy, and resisting fragmentation1:40:00 – What we lose when everything becomes fair1:50:00 – From synths to sacraments: reclaiming tradition1:58:00 – Final reflectionsMentioned:– Jordan Peterson– Jonathan Pageau– Paul VanderKlay– Matt C– Bethel Redding / BSSM– Apostles Creed Bar & Chill– Midwestuary 2025https://www.midwestuary.com/📍 Stay connected:☕ Support the channel & become a member: youtube.com/@christianbaxter_yt/join🐦 Follow me on X: https://x.com/chrbaxter_yt🎧 Podcast on Spotify/Apple: The Yours Truly Podcast

🎙 Episode 118 — Always Somewhere Else: Chronic Displacement, Faith, and Coming Home🎧 DESCRIPTIONIn this deeply personal episode, Christian and Meg Baxter reflect on the emotional toll of chronic travel, the impact of arrested development, and the long road home—to marriage, family, and faith. Prompted by a quote from a Chris Williamson interview with members of the band Underøath, they explore how Christian's past in touring worship bands and recent years as a travel nurse have shaped their relationship and spiritual life.From NICU trauma to marriage fatigue, from fan culture in Christian music to the quiet pain of disconnection, this conversation is as raw as it is redemptive. It’s a love story shaped by absence and return, confession and rebuilding—a testimony of grace that can only come from living it all the way through.Whether you're wrestling with your own version of "chronic displacement," or trying to abide more fully where you are, we invite you into this honest space.⏱️ Episode ThemesThe Quote That Hit Us – Chronic displacement, fight-or-flight, and life on the roadTouring, Marriage, and Arrested Development – How early ministry shaped usThe Cost of Absence – Travel nursing, disconnection, and placelessnessComing Full Circle – Returning to the NICU where our daughter was bornPostpartum and the Fog of Shame – Meg’s honest reflection on bonding and griefConfession and Collapse – When truth shattered everything and became the path to healingLearning to Come Home – Reintegration, small talk, and invisible laborFaith After Failure – Why Christian still believes after betrayal, burnout, and brokennessPeace in the Valley – Meg on unshakable peace and the presence of God in darknessThe Practice of the Better – Ending with poetry, presence, and a vision for wholeness👥 PEOPLE MENTIONED– Chris Williamson (Modern Wisdom) @ChrisWillx – Underøath (Spencer Chamberlain & Aaron Gillespie) @underoathmusic – Jordan Peterson @JordanBPeterson – Esther Perel– Michael Tate (DC Talk / Newsboys)– Jonathan Pageau @JonathanPageau 📌 JOIN THE COMMUNITY🕊️ Become a channel member: Join Here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU5SNBfTo4umhjYz6M0Jsmg/join Follow on X: 📝 Subscribe to the Substack: https://substack.com/@christianbaxteryt🎧 Listen to Yours Truly wherever you get podcasts🌐 Website: [Coming Soon]

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A conversation on "The Meaning of Things" myth, and the search for an embodied, symbolic faith.📺Jordan Peterson and the Gospel: Where Evangelicals Are Headed NextWhat happens when archetypes meet the altar? In this longform conversation with Eric Benjamin @meaningofthings we trace how Jordan Peterson's symbolic lens is influencing evangelical theology, confession, and spiritual formation. From the rise of internet spirituality to in-the-trenches church leadership, we explore the hunger for meaning reshaping the evangelical imagination — and why the gospel must remain more than myth, but not less than one. We wrestle with the question: Is the future of evangelicalism symbolic, sacramental, or something deeper still?🔔 Subscribe and become a channel member to support more conversations like this.channel membership link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU5SNBfTo4umhjYz6M0Jsmg/join⏱️ Timestamps00:00 – Intro + The Symbolic World Summit and Evangelical CrosscurrentsChristian reflects on the emerging overlap between Peterson’s ideas and evangelical influencers like Ruslan and “What Do You Meme.”12:30 – Confession, Collapse, and Archetypal AwakeningA personal story of failure, sacrifice, and how ancient symbols can become painfully real.24:10 – Are Stories Just Symbols? Evangelical Bible Reading ReconsideredEric and Christian examine the difference between moral lessons and spiritually participatory narratives.34:55 – Jordan Peterson, Ladder Theology, and the Limits of Self-Help ChristianityA critique of archetypal religion that tries to climb to God rather than receiving grace from Him.46:40 – From Worship Teams to Embodied Faith: Can the Church Recover Participation?Why worship isn’t just music — and how structure and liturgy create space for real presence.58:15 – The Role of Communion in Non-Sacramental ChurchesWhat does it mean when even low-church pastors admit “our communion sucks”?1:10:20 – Discipleship, Gardens, and the Fractals of WorshipFrom prayer journals to baking bread, how small, embodied acts shape a whole theology.1:22:40 – Can Peterson Ever Walk Through the Door?Peterson holds the door open for seekers — but can he ever fully step through?1:33:15 – Hell, Healing, and Rebuilding Self-Respect After SinChristian shares how telling the truth didn’t fix everything — but started the path back.1:42:30 – The Archetype and the Flesh: Why Jesus Must Be More Than a PatternThe gospel isn’t just a model to imitate — it’s a person to follow, trust, and be saved by.🧠 Guests & Mentions:Eric Benjamin @meaningofthings Paul VanderKlayJonathan PageauJordan PetersonTim Mackie (BibleProject)Michael HeiserJohn VervaekeRuslanWhat Do You Meme📌 Join the conversation:🔗 Become a channel member: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU5SNBfTo4umhjYz6M0Jsmg/join🎙️ The Yours Truly Podcast → https://www.youtube.com/@christianbaxter_yt🐦 Twitter/X → https://x.com/chrbaxter_yt📬 Substack → https://substack.com/@christianbaxteryt

Ever felt the pull of something ancient in the middle of modern life? In this episode, Cory shares his journey from a Baptist upbringing into the deep tradition of Catholicism. We talk about how the Eucharist became a turning point for him, why liturgy isn’t just ceremony, and what it means to recover sacred rhythms in a world that rarely slows down.Key Topics Covered:Understanding Liturgy: How liturgical practices shape our worship experiences.The Eucharist Explained: Why the Eucharist holds a central role in Catholic worship and its impact on faith.Tradition vs. Modernity: Balancing age-old practices with contemporary spiritual needs in today’s world.Community in Faith: The importance of connecting with others and fostering a sense of belonging in diverse Christian denominations.Whether you're a lifelong Christian, exploring your faith, or curious about the dialogue between different traditions, this conversation offers valuable insights into how we can navigate our faith journeys together.Don't forget to like, subscribe, and hit the notification bell for more enlightening conversations about faith, worship, and community!Connect with Christian:X: https://x.com/chrbaxter_ytBecome a Channel Member! --- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU5SNBfTo4umhjYz6M0Jsmg/joinJoin the conversation in the comments!#CoryKobel #Christianity #Liturgy #Eucharist #FaithJourney #Catholicism #Tradition #Community #ModernFaith